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Sunday, December 30, 2007
Sunday night/Monday Morning
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Saturday, December 29, 2007
Time's Fleeting
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Wednesday, December 26, 2007
After Christmas
When the song of the angels is stilled,
Emma trying to tear into her package
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Whisker's in Emma's toy basket
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Her favorite place last night
she was playing with the balloon string
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Do you ever?
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Monday, December 03, 2007
How Addicted to Blogging Are You?
I got this from Linda over at : MacDonald Clan
82%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?
The post before this was actually good so if you haven't go read it! :)
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How God Works
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Awesome Original Christmas Cards
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Monday, November 26, 2007
Updated
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Sunday, November 18, 2007
Resting in the Lord
Isn't it easy to get so caught up in life that we forget to just sit up and enjoy the moment? I am guilty of this just as anyone...but when I do remember to just stop, shut up, and be quiet...those moments are so precious. I so often get so busy that I almost miss that these days are fleeting and in a blink of an eye my babies are not going to be babies anymore. Reality is Jacob truly isn't. He's closing in on 7 yrs old and I am not sure how that happened. I'm thankful it has, trust me...having a child captured at an age forever well it sucks. I know ugly word, but it does. It does seem like just yesterday Jacob was born and now here we are over 6 yrs later and he's turned into such a wonderful little boy. Then Jackson. When we moved here to Germany he wasn't even 2 yet...he was CLOSE, but he wasn't yet! Now some how he's turned into this 4 yr old that cracks me up often, makes me feel like I'm going to lose all my hair because of, and has such a tender heart (so got that from me!). Today during church he climbed into my lap and just cuddled with me. He placed his head under my chin and just rested. He knows he has a safe place to go to.
Sitting here this evening thinking about Jack climbing in my lap during church made me think, that's how we should be with Jesus. We should always feel like we can simply crawl into his lap and rest there. So often we get into the busyness (yes..being BUSY) in Christ, that we forget to REST in him. How many of us are attending church, bible study, helping in other area's of church...being it Praise Team/Choir, Children's ministry, etc....being busy in the name of Christ is EASY. My goodness it's so easy! But to be resting in Christ...well that for me is a bigger struggle. I have to truly remind myself to rest in him. That I can just be silent, sit still, close my eyes, focus on him. So often I should be reading his word and just being still, letting his words do the work, letting him do what he will do and me just accepting it, live it, and rest in him. How often do we truly rest in the Lord?
What joy we can have when we just stop doing all the time. I'm not saying not to do things within the church, for Christ, etc...trust me just the opposite (we need MORE people to be stepping up). But, I know for me how important it is to simply be with the Lord. I don't do it very often. Trust me that's quite humbling to type out, but it's the truth. I must make it a priority to just sit and be still. I need to shut up more, and listen harder.
I have a feeling I'm not alone there.
"Lord, please forgive me for getting so busy "doing" your work, that I forget to be your work. Lord you are my soft place to fall, my safe place to rest. Lord I need to remember that I need to rest in you so that I can be rejuivinated to do your work that you call me to do. There is no greater joy that to be in your presence Lord. I thank you for not only allowing me to share you with others, but that I can simply keep you to myself at times as well. Lord you are oh so Holy and I praise you. In your precious name. Amen"
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Thursday, November 15, 2007
Seeing in My Heart
If you could look into my heart you'd see a woman who's been wounded many times, but with the Grace of God, healed. If you could see in my heart, you'd see many things that have went untold, except to God. If you could see into my heart you'd see tears dropped and wiped away with the gentleness of Christ's hand.
If you could see into my heart you'd see the love of a wife who wants to be a truly Godly wife. To respect her husband and never show anything less to him. You'd see a wife who's said hurtful and ugly things to this man, but see a heart who's been forgiven by that man.
If you could see in my heart you'd see a mother who wants nothing more than to raise Godly children, bring them up in love, kindness, gentleness, and discipline. You'd see a mom who feels so often that she's failin in all those aspects...yet amazingly has loving, kind, gentle, pretty well deisciplined children and that heart knows it's nothing short of the Grace of God.
Today as I listen to my boys giggle watching Spirit, knowing how much spirit they have in themselves makes me smile. I hear Emma cooing to her little "friends" on her playmat, as she moves herself all around, wiggled out of her tiny little jeans (yes she did!!), and is making her way off her mat and onto the hardwood floor!
Right now there's such joy in my heart I can't even tell you.
You see my hearts been broken, torn, and ripped apart...but it then gets healed by God. He's at times gentle and at times in my face. He knows just what I need to "Get it" each day and at times different times of the day. He's my father and when I need to be disciplined he does it...righteously, effectively, but full of love none the less. When I'm broken and falling on my face in grief...he gently lifts me up and rocks me in his strong , capable, and soft arms. He wispers reassurance and promises to me and lets me know that I indeed will see the light if I just look to him.
How a single person can get through this life without him is simply beyond my comprehension. I've lived the worst nightmare of every parent. I've watched my child die. I've buried her in the ground, and I've survived to tell about it. Could God have saved her and allowed her to live...absolutely...but he didn't. Do I understand his reasoning, no..do I accept it and realize it's all for his Glory and that ultimately she's just where she's meant to be. Do I realize that she lived on this earth the perfect amount of time to fullfil her life? Yes, yes, YES. Does it humble me to my knee's to know that Jordyn was able to accomplish all of her life's accomplishments in just 2 yrs 1 month and 8 days. Absolutely....especially when I look at myself and feel that I'm so far from still accomplishing all that God has set out for me to do so far in my 30 yrs. Why some can accomplish things in 5 days or 2 yrs vs 80 or 90 yrs I don't know. What I do know is this...God knows and that's all I need to worry about. God see's each and everyone of our hearts...those who believe and are doing their best to follow him and those who aren't.
To that I'm grateful.
Today I'm thankful for My God. For his sacrifice for me on the cross 2000 years ago.
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
Jacob
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Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Praise
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Saturday, November 03, 2007
Halloween's Over, Here Comes....
******Just a note....pictures at the bottom*****************
Halloween is over and we're now looking forward to Thanksgiving my 2nd favorite holiday right after Christmas. I love having a day that's set aside to remember just how blessed we are and how much we have to be thankful for. Our family truly has so much to be thankful for, and far too often I forget that.
I am so blessed to have a husband who loves me as unconditionally as a person can love another person. He puts up with a very moody woman, who at times can go from one extreme to the next in 5 seconds flat. He's given me 4 beautiful, precious children. He's a man who's after God's own heart and that is the biggest blessing of all. Our children see that and that will be one of the biggest influences in their own Christian walk.
This year we'll be celebrating the Holiday with our friends. The husband's currently deployed, but will be home for Thanksgiving, or should be anyways and he's requested that we be there! It's awesome! She's over here a lot and I just love her. She's definately the best friend I have here and I just love spending time with her. I love their kids, and Chad and her husband get along great...when they're oh both in the same country! LOL For Christmas he'll be back to his deployment so she and the kids will be coming here to our home. I'm so thankful to have friends that we can open our home to when the spouse is gone or even home to just have those kinds of friends. We ARE blessed.
I'm so thankful that I am able to homeschool my children. To know that I don't have to send them off to brick and mortar buildings 5 days a week, to have another person, a virtual stranger teach my children things that I'm more than capable of teaching them. To know that I was the first person to hear them read their first words, first sentence, first paragraph and so on. I know it's not for every family, but it is for ours and because of that I praise God we're Americans and have this privilege (and yes it's most definately a privilege).
Most of all I'm thankful for Christ. That he died for my sins. That he humbled himself to be a child of a virgin girl who was not much more than a child herself when she became his mother. That he saw it fit to love ME even though I'm full of sin and ugliness at times. He willingly died on the cross for ME. How humbling when we get down to the nitty gritty and really think of just what he did for us. How many of us would even be willing to CONSIDER being crusifide but less actually doing it? I can say that I wouldn't. Just the thought of it is too much for me. How blessed we are to have a Savior such as he.
I don't see myself coming here everyday, but for the month of November and December everytime I do post, I will be listing at least 3 things I'm thankful for!
God Bless
Jacob, Emma, and Jackson
The boys were both Peter from Narnia
Emma was a Princess
This is Love
My Princes
My Princess (tired in Daddy's arms)
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Monday, October 29, 2007
The Ballet and Leaves Changing
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Saturday we went and took a hike and looked at all the leaves in all their glory! Truly it's like God just paints our world with the beautiful colors! It was a great hike, we went up what I like to call a mini mountain, ok so it wasn't a mountain, but man that hill was far up and steep! Once up there it was totally worth the climb though! We walked through the woods down a path. It was really beautiful! After we came back, had lunch, and our boys went home with a friend because later they were having a sleep over at another friends house, Chad, Emma, and I headed to Graf to the new PX. On the way there the leaves were stunning as well! I made Chad pull over so I could take a couple pictures!
These were taken on our walk
Chad and I looking at Emma Our family with again our friends girl
(Our friends daughter on Chad's back)
On our way to Graf
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Saturday, October 27, 2007
A few pictures from the last 2 days
God's Splendor
Jack and Jacob
Me and Emma at the Ballet
Chad and Me looking at Emma
with our friends girl hanging out on Chad's back
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Friday, October 26, 2007
Going to the Ballet
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Monday, October 15, 2007
Seeing the Sun
I'm seeing the sun again in all ways! I still know there's going to be bumps, curves, and complete detours at times but I'm out of this funk for the most part. Still aware of what could happen, but just happy things are going better for me right now and really that's all I can do. Praise God for the good he's bringing me now. I can say this, I can't imagine how anyone gets through trials without him, I truly ache for them. Without Christ you have nothing. It's that simple..with him there's hope, without him there is none.
I was reading another blog and they had this song posted on there and I thought...oh that's so perfect for me right now! I love this song and hadn't heard it in a while!!
PRAISE YOU IN THE DANCE
I will sing to the Lord, I will lift my voice, for you have heard my cry.
I will sing to the Lord and I will lift my hands, for you have brought me out of the pit.
For you have brought me out of the pit.
CHORUS
I'll sing glory, halleluiah, I lift Your name on high
I'll sing holy, 'cause You're worthy.
I'll praise you in the dance.
And I'll sing glory, halleluiah, I life Your name on high.
I'll sing holy, 'case You're worthy.
I'll praise You with the dance.
I will praise You with the dance. 2x
I will sing to the Lord and I will lift my voice,
for You have heard my cry.
I will sing to the Lord and I will lift my hands,
for You have brought me out of the pit,
for You have brought me out of the pit.
REPEAT CHORUS
*********i wanted to add a video but my internet is going so slow.....it's by Casting Crowns so feel free to take a listen if you can't quite put your finger on the song/tune!*************
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Monday, October 08, 2007
More Fun in Getting Real
Ok so please make sure you read the devotional after I'm done. I have felt very alone lately. I'm surrounded by people here at home obviously as well as friends here and friends in the states and family who a part of me knows they love me, but yet I just don't know why. I am seeing that I don't even love myself, so how can anyone else love me? I truly feel unlovable. I also feel like I don't even know who I am. I feel completely lost in myself and it seems rediculous.
Tonight I just couldn't take it anymore and left for a little while. I drove around post and found myself at the post lake. I walked around there for a while, and then sat on the bench and just cried and talked to Jesus. I don't see my purpose. I don't feel much of anything, and oh I miss Jordyn so much. I keep thinking it shouldn't hurt this bad still. I keep thinking how it wasn't hurting this bad, but in the last couple of weeks it just surrounds my thoughts.
When I did come home, Chad was finishing up dinner which I left just barely started, the boys were working on the playroom (with Chad) and Emma was crying, because Chad didn't bother to check her diaper (she's in cloth diapers and was VERY wet). I changed her, nursed her, put her into her PJ's, and just held her and cried with her.
I don't write this for sympathy, just being honest here. It's not going to be all lovey dovey anymore. I don't have lovey dovey going on in me not right now anyways.
So take a look at this devotion and see how perfect it was for me today.
October 8, 2007
When We Don't Understand
Sharon Jaynes
Today's Truth
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Friend to Friend
My son, Steven, was four-years-old when he contracted a severe case of the flu. He looked up at me with hollow eyes and slumped like a rag doll in my lap. When I took my limp little one to the doctor, he quickly surmised that Steven was dehydrated and needed to be admitted into the hospital immediately.
My heart broke as nurses strapped my baby boy onto a table and began to place IVs into his tiny arms. "Mommy, Mommy, help me," he cried. "They're hurting me! Make them stop!"
"No, honey," I tried to reassure him with tears that matched his own. "They're not trying to hurt you. They are going to make you all better."
He cried. I cried. The nurses cried.
Standing there, I could only imagine what was going through Steven's little mind: Why are these people hurting me. Why doesn't Mommy make them stop? She must not love me. She's not protecting me. If she loved me, she wouldn't let this happen. She must not care about me?
Then I had an extraordinary moment with God as He began to give me a glimpse into how He feels when I am going through a painful time that is for my benefit, but I can't understand. I cry out, "I thought you love me? Why have you deserted me? Why don't You make it stop!" But God allows the painful remedy to do its work. To me it may feel like God doesn't care, but to God, He knows that the temporary pain is necessary to make me whole.
If you are going through a difficult time right now -- a circumstance that you don't understand -- know that your Heavenly Father is right by your side. He loves you dearly and sometimes allows pain because it is the best remedy for our ultimate good.
Let's Pray
Dear Heavenly Father, I am so glad that You will never leave me. I'll admit that sometimes I whine, even cry, because I don't understand why You allow certain things to happen in my life. But I know that You are Sovereign and nothing happens by chance in the life of your children. You are shaping and molding me into the woman that You desire me to be. I trust You and Your ways even when I don't understand.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
Now It's Your Turn
What went through your mind as I was talking about Steven lying on that treatment table?
Have you ever felt toward God the way that Steven was feeling toward me?
Do you think God hurts when we have to go through painful situations? Let's don't guess. Read John 11:35. How did Jesus feel when He saw the pain his friends were going through?
More from the Girlfriends
Pain is sometimes hard to understand. C.S. Lewis said that "God whispers in our pleasures but shouts in our pain." If you would like to learn more about how God teaches us through difficulties in life, see Sharon Jaynes' book, Your Scars are Beautiful to God. Pain is never without purpose. Let's don't waste our sorrows but use them to minister to a hurting world.
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Sunday, October 07, 2007
Searching for words
I'm searching for words to write here. I've attempted 3 times so far, but they're not the right words. So I just ask for prayer. I don't feel quite as numb, but it's still got a nice strong grip on me, I''m not in denial there at all.
I need and must get some sleep, I'm falling asleep here.
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Thursday, October 04, 2007
Devotional
This devotion struck a cord with me today. I'm struggling right now over many things, read the previous entry to get an idea. Sometimes I put on a front that everything's alright, that I'm "good", that nothing is wrong. The fact is though...even when we are doing all we can to be in God's will, we still have days where we need to be uplifted by others, we need encouragement, we need extra love, compassion, and care.
Just on a side note, I got this devotional from Girlfriend's In God Daily Women's Devotional, all the info you need to get your daily devotion should be linked at the bottom. I highly recommend it, so often these devotions are nothing less but God sent directly to my heart.
October 4, 2007
Believers Need Encouraging Too!
Sharon Jaynes
Today's Truth
"So then, as occasion and opportunity open to us, let us do good to all people, (not only being useful or profitable to them, but also doing what is for their spiritual good advantage). Be mindful to be a blessing, especially to those of the household of faith, those who belong to God's family with you, the believers" (Galatians 6:10 AMP emphasis added).
Friend to Friend
When I think of Paul, I tend to think of a stoic stern rock of a man that is neither swayed nor deterred from the course at hand. I see him needing no one other than Christ Himself. But that was not true! Paul needed the encouragement of other believers. He longed for the words of fellow Christians to cheer him on while spreading the gospel.
Ponder these words he penned to the Corinthian church:
"For when we came into Macedonia, this body of ours had no rest, but we were harassed at every turn -- conflicts on the outside, fears within. But God who comforts the downcast, comforted us by the coming of Titus, and not only by his coming but also by the comfort you had given him. He told us about your longing for me, your deep sorrow, your ardent concern for me, so that my joy was greater than ever" (2 Corinthians 7:5-7 emphasis added).
What was Paul feeling at this time? Conflicts on the outside and fears on the inside. Yes, that mighty man of God who said, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" also struggled with fear, discouragement and inner turmoil.
Paul was a spiritually confident man! He wrote: "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed" (2 Corinthians 4:8). "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us" (Romans 8:37). Paul believed these words with all of his heart, and yet, he still needed the words of fellow believers to encourage him to press on.
Even as I write these words, I am struck with just how much fellow Christians need encouraging words to continue in the faith. It is easy to say, "Well, God should be enough. People should find their strength in Christ." Yes, Christ is enough for salvation. However, God has placed us in a Body. He called us the Body of Christ because we are dependent on each other to function well, to love well, and to struggle well.
Let's Pray
Dear Lord, show me a Christian that needs encouragement today. May I never, never withhold praise and appreciation for any fellow believer when it is within my power to give them the boost they need. May I be like Elizabeth who encouraged her cousin Mary, the mother of Jesus, the very moment she walked in the door of her home.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
Now it's Your Turn
When is the last time someone in the church thanked you for a job well done? How did it make you feel?
When is the last time you thanked someone in your church for all their hard work in leading worship, teaching children, sharpening the pencils in the pews, etc.?
What does God want you to do in response to this devotion?
More from the Girlfriends
Sometimes we forget just how much people need encouragement. It is easy to think that spiritually mature people don't need it....we're wrong. They do! If you would like to learn how to become known as an encourager in your church, see Sharon's book, The Power of a Woman's Words. Also, consider The Power of a Woman's Words Bible Study for your next Bible study group!
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Sunday, September 30, 2007
Praise You In This Storm
So I may not be quite in a storm, but I hear the thunder rumbling right now and this is a great reminder of what I need to be doing every day...
Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus
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Being Real
I've been feeling rather numb lately. I have every reason to feel so happy and I have joy in me...I have Jesus as my savior, a husband who loves me, beautiful children, yet my heart still aches. If I'm going to be real on here well here it is. Sometimes the pain of losing Jordyn to Heaven is so overwhelming. I just struggle to breath at times. I know she's in better hands. I know she's with Jesus and honestly I'd never take that from her, she's where we all long to be one day....at the feet of Jesus.
Some of you know how much I ached to have another daughter, my arms ached for her. God graced us with Emma Grace almost 2 months ago and I can't even find the words most days to tell anyone how much I love this little girl. I don't love her more than my other children, I just love her differently, just as I love each of my kids different. Maybe I thought she'd fill that empty spot in my heart. I know how rediculous, you'd think after 7 1/2 yrs and 2 boys before her, I'd have KNOWN. The problem is, I didn't even REALIZE it, that there was a longing for this hole to be filled. I know oh I know Jesus can fill any hole in my life, the thing that I'm realizing is that he's leaving it open, wide open for a reason. I'm supposed to depend on him MORE to fill me up, and well I need that hole to keep me grounded. I guess I need this hole to be reminded just how precious life is, how fast it can be taken away from you, no matter HOW MUCH you love.
I'll even admit more. I'm scared like I've not been scared in a very long time. So scared that God will find it his will to once again take my daughter from me and take her home to Heaven. I'm terrified of that. I sit here knowing the reality is, he most likely won't..yet I cling to Emma with a fear that I can't quiet and I know it's Satan. He wants me to focus more on her and the boys than Jesus...well he found my weakness and I'm struggling with it.
Today I witnessed 5 children dedicate their lives to Jesus. I watched them literally take the plunge and be baptised. It was beautiful, it was precious, and I got to watch those sweet children profess their love for Jesus and desire to walk the path he has set out for them. I looked at Jacob who was there to witness it as well and thought of how I can't wait for him and his siblings to give their lives over to Christ fully and completely, and I found my thoughts going to Jordyn. How she loved him like I've never seen another love Jesus at her sweet and tender age throughout her sweet little, short life of 2 yrs 1 month and 8 days. She KNEW Jesus and she was ready and willing to go home to him, even as my heart screamed NO. I wish I could say I was as peaceful and joyful over her leaving my arms for Jesus's, but if I did I'd be lying. I begged her to come back to me when she took her last breath. I sat there rocking her sweet little body, begging her to please just come back to me for a little while longer. I didn't want God to have her just yet. I hadn't had enough time with her. The fact is, and I know this now without a doubt, no amount of time would have been long enough, when it came to me out living her.
I know this probably makes no sense. I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm aching and most of all I just feel numb to a point. I'm struggling to be me.
If I can tell you one thing about grief...it's that it doesn't stop not completely. I have lots of great days, but I sit here right now crying because I miss Jordyn so much, it just hurts. I would love to hold her in my arms again, to smell her sweet head, to run my finger over her face, and kiss it. I see it more clearly now than ever..Emma is NOT a replacement for Jordyn. She's not a cure all for my broken heart. She's Emma Grace...nothing more and nothing less. She has a new part of my heart that didn't exist before she was created.
It's time for me to be real with myself. It's not going to be pretty.
Posted by Christy at 2:36 PM 5 comments
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
If You're a Mom, even if you're not!
Posted by Christy at 3:38 PM 1 comments
Labels: Anita Renfroe, Christian Humor, Mom advice, Sound Advice
Monday, September 24, 2007
Need a Cure Now
I get the Candlelighter's newsletter and emails and this came today....take a look it's 3 minutes of your life, you waste a lot more looking at junk...this could actually save a child's life and maybe another mother will not have to walk this path I'm on and will be on the rest of my life.....
Just a reminder of what's been lost, what could have been if there WAS a cure...
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Saturday, September 22, 2007
Praises for Jillian!
I'm not sure if I'd shared Jillian here so I'm going to give a little history of how I know her and her family! When Jordyn was dx and we moved back to the states for Jordyn to be treated (tx) at Walter Reed we were living at the Ronald McDonald House. There Barbara the house manager told me about listserv which has group after group of different support groups online for those battling cancers of all sorts (and many other diseases). On one of them I believe it was the AML board I met Jessica. Mom of twin girls (and a son) who both had AML leukemia. Jillian was in remission when we met and Jade was fighting like Jordyn. Jordyn and Jade had their BMT's just a day apart. Jade relapsed quickly after her BMT and Feb 4, 2000 went home to Heaven. When I called Jessica because Jordyn had relapsed I didn't know Jade had died. Jessica let me cry, share my fears, etc even in her own grief. Jillian did relapse, had a BMT (bone marrow transplant), relapsed again....and then a few months ago she was dx with a whole other cancer, osteosarcoma, which is a cancer in her leg. The Osteo is a whole other diagnosis, it's a completely seperate cancer...so they still count her bone marrow transplant as a success and they just found out that she's still 100% donor, which is FABULOUS news!! One of these days our families will meet in person.
In the mean time I keep up with them online, pray for them, love them. I hope you'll go and visit Jillian and pray for her, celebrate the victories, etc.
www.caringbridge.org/visit/joyfuljillian
Posted by Christy at 1:42 PM 1 comments
Labels: Amazing Kids, Childhood Cancer