Thursday, August 20, 2009

Perspectives

Tonight a friend and I were talking and she told me that I appeared to keep it all together. I rarely, if ever feel that way. If you saw our home, you'd know that too. Seriously it's a mess, yup even with Chad home, it's a mess. Tomorrow I'm getting off my butt and getting things done....1st laundry, then my living room and dining room, and my bathroom. Chad's off on Monday and Tuesday and we are going to make those days count, whether he likes it or not! I'm going to go pick up paint tomorrow! hehehe! Ok so back to that first statement! I read others blogs or talk to friends and think the same thing about them, yet how many of us actually FEEL the way others see us? How many of us feel like we have it all together? How many of us actually feel like we're just hanging on by a thread? How many of us feel like we don't have a lot to truly say, wonder if anyone's actually listening, and more so if anyone really cares about what little we do have to say?

Here's the thing about me, I think I'm a very boring person. I think that's the first time I've ever said it out loud. Often I feel like I have very little to share, when I do want to share seems like few people care to listen. It could just be me and my insecurities. Do you know though, that through all my insecurities, concerns, even my worries (you know that thing GOD tells us not to do, but we foolishly do?!)...that through it all I hear a whisper in my ear that I'm not of those things, but I'm everything he says I am. Beautiful, special, his creation. How easily I forget, how easily I allow Satan's lies to penetrate my heart and mind. Why do I do that? Why do so many of us do that? He convinces us that all the beautiful things our friends and loved ones tell us, that it's just not true. Maybe I don't have it all together, but she see's the good things I'm doing and what I'm doing, most of all she see's my heart and loves me. What I have to remember and keep focused on is that all the good and wonderful things my friends and loved ones see in me, GOD see's even more, loves me even more, cherishes me even more, and adores me even more.

Oh GOD let me hear your truth not as a whisper, Lord, but as a booming voice. Let your truths drown out Satan's lies to me. Let me be reassured of who I am in you and because of you, but that I do get so confident that I forget that I'm nothing without you. Father, you made me in your image, let my image glorify you. Let me shine in and through you. Help me Lord, to be a better daughter of yours. Let me remember that although as human's we step out on our own away from our earthly parents, we never step away from you, that you're here step by step. Lord let me be the wife you made me to be. Let me support him, be submissive, and love him the way you created me to love him. Help me Lord, oh Father to be the mother you want me to be. I feel like I'm always falling down in that area Lord. Let me be gentle with them, with tender voices, and a tender hand. Lord let me love and discipline them as you call me to do, and not as my own nature calls me to do. Thank you Lord for creating me, for loving me, for forgiving me. I am not worthy of any of it, but because of you, you have washed away my sins and called me Worthy! You my Lord are Holy.
Amen.


I challenge each of you reading this to look at how others see you, and how you see yourself, and then how GOD see's you. I challenge you to see yourself as GOD see's you. I'd love for you to write an entry on what GOD see's in you, and link leave your link in my comments so I can go read them. Then if anyone joins in, I'll post the link and share with others. Let our perspectives be that of GOD today and from here on.



5 comments:

Missie said...

You wrote a good "get ya thinking" entry!

Have a good Friday.

Beth in NC said...

Hey Christy,

Amen about who God says you are! You're right, we should our see ourselves as God sees us.

I might right a post about this soon myself.

Bless you girl,
Beth

Beth in NC said...

Hey Christy,

Amen about who God says you are! You're right, we should our see ourselves as God sees us.

I might right a post about this soon myself.

Bless you girl,
Beth

He & Me + 3 said...

What a great post and so true. My friends do see me as this great mom that always has it all together. So not how I see me. We are so much harder on ourselves. I never thought to think like that. Thank you!

Kelly Dawn said...

Oh Christy - we could so be sisters..

I have had several people tell me how "strong" I am - and how do i keep it together? and how do I do it all?

Well not by lack of drama ---

My house is clean about once a week - maybe if Wayne is lucky - the hallway? continuous laundry pile except this week only because I did it all before we went on vacation - we have been back since Sunday night and I have not unpacked a single suitcase -and it is Thursday - wayne has been getting his socks and underwear out of the suitcase in our bedroom floor -

If anyone had any idea the arguments he and I have over the house and our bedroom which looks like a crime scene disaster...seriously my room looks like someone broke in my house and ransacked only my room - so does my closet...so does our master bathroom -

and the days when I am all fired up and ready to go and I want to get it done and i have a plan? Something always happens to make me look at it and say ughhhh I just cant face and I take a nap instead...

Others see me as strong? I see myself as weak and it kills me sometimes...sends me into a depression and I just wanna cry and sleep - and yell at my kids and blame wayne for everything wrong...all his fault-none of mine - never mine...

God knows where my weaknesses are and he helps me work on them and he knows what i can handle and what i can and how many days i can take and how many arguments it will take to make me cry and realize what a slacker i have been and make me try to correct it....

Love you - been missing for a while...one of things ya know?

Kelly