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Yesterday my friend Amanda shared a website and asked my opinion on it, to see if I felt the same way, etc. She'd left a comment and oh the ugliness that came afterwards was so disheartening. The women attacked her. They accused her of the things they were doing to her, being judgemental, harsh, mean, etc. She stated her opinion, but as I read their replies to her what I found was that they were so offended because they felt guilty for their own choices. I think often of my own defensiveness, it's because I know I've done something that's wrong for me and/or my children and when someone shows me that, it hurts and you want to defend yourself. Here's what I wrote last night to Amanda and she encouraged me to share it. IF you feel offended by this, I ask that you do two things...
1. Remember this is my blog and my opinion and feelings and that I have every right to express this.
2. Maybe the reason you feel offended is because GOD is tell you YOU something.

Here is what I wrote in an email last night to Amanda:

Tonight at bible study we read and studied on Roman's 14. Goodness, Amanda, I kept thinking of that blog and how you're most likely dealing with women who are either not Christians or are not in the same place in their walk as you are. I'd encourage you to read Roman's 14. When I go there and reply, I'm going to pray first, to make sure I can be edifying and not flame the fires. It makes me so sad that they are all blinded by the lies that Satan is feeding them and I DO believe he is. He's fed our whole society on lies.
The lie that both parents must work and that it's a "luxury" for mom to stay home and raise their children. Lies that we just can't live without 2 cars, that brand new house, the newest this or that (or even a used version of it), that we must have cable and 500 channels, that we must update this or that, we must be in style and so must our children. That if our cell phones don't have this or that, then it's just not good enough, that we must, we must, we must. When the truth is, we don't. Yet our society has fallen into Satan's lies, including the fact that both parents must work. That it's ok and justifiable because well "Grandma's" watching the kids or "Aunt so and so is" or for Christians "They go to a Christian....daycare, preschool, private school", yes those can be wonderful gifts...but are they taking away the GOD given GIFT of being a parent and doing these things ourselves? I don't believe home schooling is for everyone, but I do believe that if GOD calls us to do it, we ARE to obey him. That if we're not called, we're to encourage our brothers and sisters who are and not say "oh I could never do that, I don't have the patience." Many women have imo fallen into the trap that Feminism has given us all this "power" when all it has done is destroy families, destroy women by who GOD made us to be, and hurt children. Our society is NOT better off because Mommy is a high powered lawyer and little Debbie is being raised by a Nanny or daycare center for 12-14 hours a day, and Mommy has 10 minutes of downtime to tuck her in, sometimes. Our marriages are definitely not better off because husband and wife are barely seeing each other and when they do, they're both so exhausted they can't encourage and pamper the other one. Often roles are being reversed and the men's role in his family are being down graded as Head of the House to "just another body" in the house. It's sad and so many have fallen for this lie.

Any ways my point is I'm praying and praying for you. I wanted to share this song with you too. I found it from another blog and ended up doing a search and buying the sheet music on it so that I can sing it at church hopefully in a couple of months! I just think it's so beautiful. A few weeks ago I sang "Does Anybody Hear Her" by Casting Crowns. This is imo just as powerful, but in another way. It's Addison Road's, What Do I Know Of Holy. I found this from Kelly at Kelly's Korner

Stepping Outside Yourself

I'm here. Tomorrow, well ok it's 2:30 AM so it's officially today/Monday. Anyways, in the morning I was supposed to go and do interviews for our women's bible study group, for the next executive board. Unfortunately it does not look like I'll be making the first two interviews. They're two good friends of mine too, and well we're all ornery that it would have been fun to have fun with them, but no seriously it would have been a serious interview. The interviews will go on, just without me. I'm hoping by the afternoon Jack will be feeling better, or good enough for me to attend the one in the afternoon and then we have one more Tuesday afternoon.


So tell me is there anyone else who feels like there's so much on their heart that they want and need to write about, but knows that the energy (emotional) that it will take to write it all out, is so much, and it's so personal, deep in your heart, that you hold yourself back from doing so? Surely I'm not the only one. I keep it pretty real, but often don't get as deep as I want to. I have so many unpublished entries, you just do not know! There are times I am writing and find it's a conversation between me and GOD and it's simply at that time anyways, not meant for anyone else other than my own eyes to see and truly GET. Am I again the only one out there that has these unpublished entries that's more than just an entry, but your heart out there for Jesus to grab hold of?

Over the last few years I've grown in my relationship with Jesus. It's been one of tears, laughter, joy, and trampling. I've felt him calling me over and over again to step outside of my box. Let me tell you a few things about me. I truly enjoy public speaking. Seriously, I love it. It's a calling from the Lord and the times he's called me forth it's something I feel from him. He's calling me again to share a devotion at PWOC and I'm looking forward to it, but oh my the topic is what I am stepping outside of my box over. As much as I like to speak publically, praying outloud is NOT in my comfort zone. What has GOD been demanding of me though? To pray outloud, in front of others, not just a couple others, not just my family, oh no but a class full of women, and now, now do you know what he wants me to do? He wants me to tell these women they need to step out of their box and start praying like they've never prayed before. That they need to find that thing that they are so not comfortable with and start doing it. They need to start being obedient. Oh I am getting chills just thinking about this and not in the good way, but in the oh so uncomfortable way. Telling a room full of women it's time to stop staying inside their comfort zone, is NOT comfortable for me, but I KNOW, oh how I know I must be obedient. So....please start praying for me now. I have to give this devotional/testimony in 2 weeks I believe. I have to have it written up I think by this or next week. It's the week of the 16th that I give it, so I think I have to have it written up by next week.

Thank you for praying for me. Thank you for praying for my family as we've been sick this winter. It's truly insane the amount of times we've been sick. It's really ridiculous. I know all of you who've been covered in inches upon inches of snow are ready for spring, I am too. I'm ready to open up all my windows and air my home out. I'm ready to get my kids outside every day for at least 3-6 hours a day. I'm ready for us to stop being sick! About 45 minutes ago, Jackson who was sleeping in here woke up. He smelled awful and he discovered he'd had an accident. Yes we can all say it....ewwwwwww. Trust me it was eww! So he goes to the bathroom, I grab a bathing and put his nasty clothes in it, so tomorrow I can wash them, but keep them from stinking up the place until then! He asks to take a bath, I said sure. So he gets in, I'm in here on the this, and I hear "ewwww, oh no, oh no" Well the little man did NOT wipe so well. This was something I'd told him to do too! Oh nasty life lessons I tell you. So, we turn on the shower, pull the tub plug, and I wash him all up. He's running a fever and while he was in bed with me (he decided he wanted to go and try to sleep in his bed again) he was so restless. I am not one who gives meds often or quickly. I believe that fevers happen for a reason, they have a job to do, and I try not to interfere in that job, unless it's causing some true interference into the said child's life. Well this fever most definitely was. So he got some Tylenol, a nice warm shower, clean clothes, and a warm and very comfortable bed. I want him to be as comfortable as possible and to just get better.

Well since I'm sitting here falling asleep at the keyboard I'd say it's a sign that I need to sign off of here and go to sleep!

God Bless and sorry if this doesn't make sense, I may be more tired than I think I am!