Stepping Outside Yourself

I'm here. Tomorrow, well ok it's 2:30 AM so it's officially today/Monday. Anyways, in the morning I was supposed to go and do interviews for our women's bible study group, for the next executive board. Unfortunately it does not look like I'll be making the first two interviews. They're two good friends of mine too, and well we're all ornery that it would have been fun to have fun with them, but no seriously it would have been a serious interview. The interviews will go on, just without me. I'm hoping by the afternoon Jack will be feeling better, or good enough for me to attend the one in the afternoon and then we have one more Tuesday afternoon.


So tell me is there anyone else who feels like there's so much on their heart that they want and need to write about, but knows that the energy (emotional) that it will take to write it all out, is so much, and it's so personal, deep in your heart, that you hold yourself back from doing so? Surely I'm not the only one. I keep it pretty real, but often don't get as deep as I want to. I have so many unpublished entries, you just do not know! There are times I am writing and find it's a conversation between me and GOD and it's simply at that time anyways, not meant for anyone else other than my own eyes to see and truly GET. Am I again the only one out there that has these unpublished entries that's more than just an entry, but your heart out there for Jesus to grab hold of?

Over the last few years I've grown in my relationship with Jesus. It's been one of tears, laughter, joy, and trampling. I've felt him calling me over and over again to step outside of my box. Let me tell you a few things about me. I truly enjoy public speaking. Seriously, I love it. It's a calling from the Lord and the times he's called me forth it's something I feel from him. He's calling me again to share a devotion at PWOC and I'm looking forward to it, but oh my the topic is what I am stepping outside of my box over. As much as I like to speak publically, praying outloud is NOT in my comfort zone. What has GOD been demanding of me though? To pray outloud, in front of others, not just a couple others, not just my family, oh no but a class full of women, and now, now do you know what he wants me to do? He wants me to tell these women they need to step out of their box and start praying like they've never prayed before. That they need to find that thing that they are so not comfortable with and start doing it. They need to start being obedient. Oh I am getting chills just thinking about this and not in the good way, but in the oh so uncomfortable way. Telling a room full of women it's time to stop staying inside their comfort zone, is NOT comfortable for me, but I KNOW, oh how I know I must be obedient. So....please start praying for me now. I have to give this devotional/testimony in 2 weeks I believe. I have to have it written up I think by this or next week. It's the week of the 16th that I give it, so I think I have to have it written up by next week.

Thank you for praying for me. Thank you for praying for my family as we've been sick this winter. It's truly insane the amount of times we've been sick. It's really ridiculous. I know all of you who've been covered in inches upon inches of snow are ready for spring, I am too. I'm ready to open up all my windows and air my home out. I'm ready to get my kids outside every day for at least 3-6 hours a day. I'm ready for us to stop being sick! About 45 minutes ago, Jackson who was sleeping in here woke up. He smelled awful and he discovered he'd had an accident. Yes we can all say it....ewwwwwww. Trust me it was eww! So he goes to the bathroom, I grab a bathing and put his nasty clothes in it, so tomorrow I can wash them, but keep them from stinking up the place until then! He asks to take a bath, I said sure. So he gets in, I'm in here on the this, and I hear "ewwww, oh no, oh no" Well the little man did NOT wipe so well. This was something I'd told him to do too! Oh nasty life lessons I tell you. So, we turn on the shower, pull the tub plug, and I wash him all up. He's running a fever and while he was in bed with me (he decided he wanted to go and try to sleep in his bed again) he was so restless. I am not one who gives meds often or quickly. I believe that fevers happen for a reason, they have a job to do, and I try not to interfere in that job, unless it's causing some true interference into the said child's life. Well this fever most definitely was. So he got some Tylenol, a nice warm shower, clean clothes, and a warm and very comfortable bed. I want him to be as comfortable as possible and to just get better.

Well since I'm sitting here falling asleep at the keyboard I'd say it's a sign that I need to sign off of here and go to sleep!

God Bless and sorry if this doesn't make sense, I may be more tired than I think I am!

Thought of the Day

" Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the
morning, Satan shudders & says...'Oh no....she's awake!!"


Isn't this just how we should live everyday? Shouldn't we be living as the Lord tells us to? That we should be walking every step of our days as Christ would have us? But how many do? I wake up and so many days my first thoughts are NOT of the Lord, my 2nd thoughts are not. Instead I get consumed by the daily tasks that lay ahead of me. I allow Satan to get into my head and "busy" me. I went through a wonderful phase where every morning I woke up and started my day in prayer. I did not get out of bed, I stayed right there with the sun shining through my curtains and I layed there and praised God, asked him to guide me throughout the day. When I was doing that my days simply went the way God intended them to go. I know that not every day was not perfect, it was not easy, but I KNEW it was just as God had intended. I need to be back there, I long to be there and starting tomorrow I will. This is a necessity of life. If we don't start our day WITH God, who ARE we starting our day with? Satan. He leaps on us immediately if we don't cry out to GOD to take hold of our day.

Don't we as Christians, have a duty to make Satan shudder? If we don't, then where's our walk with Christ? How are we doing? If Satan does not feel the least bit worried about us, then are we truly walking with Christ as Christ calls us to? I don't think so. I think that when we are at our closest with Christ is when Satan is working the hardest to get into the middle of our lives. When we don't feel or even see Satan's works of trying to disrupt our lives, is when we should be worried. When we're complacient in our lives, when we feel like we have things all figured out, is exactly when we need to be digging deeper into the word, seeking God harder than ever, stepping outside of our box. When's the last time you stepped out of your box and followed God? Don't think that because you stepped out of the box last week, last month, or last year, that that is nearly good enough. We need to be working to step out of that box every single day. We need to be seeking God's will for our lives everyday. When we don't, what ARE we doing for Christ? What are we doing for ourselves?

Tonight as I lay day, my prayer is that each of you that read this, steps outside of his/her box tomorrow, the day after, and the day after that, etc...etc.!