Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Still Breathing

I breathe in, I breathe out, and drop to my knee's and pray. That's been my last week and a half. To think it all started with a phone call from Chad telling me in was in a horrible wreck that we soon discovered was pretty amazing he survived, much less got out of and was walking. Then to find out it was a miracle that he didn't become paralyzed by walking after the accident because of a torn 8th vertabrae. GOD has shown us miracles with Chad. He's coming home today (it's after midnight in Germany, so he's coming home TODAY!!!). To think that a week ago he had surgery and I sat here praying and waiting for word that all went well. He came out of surgery so loopy that I couldn't help but laugh at him. I came home and after getting the kids to bed, got online and chatted with my friend Rebekah who was in the hospital for surgery to have her spleen removed in hopes of it putting her into remission against ITP, only surgery never happened, instead she went that night and met face to face our Lord, Jesus.

The last week and a half seems so surreal. Did this all really happen to our family and to one of my dearest friends and her family? How can this be? I know all of this was determined by GOD, that our father's hand was in every part and I know that it's for his GLORY, every single part of it. I can absolutely praise him for Chad's outcome and have and will continue to. I praise GOD that Rebekah is no longer in pain, but praying for us left behind. Her beautiful 2 sons, her sister, brother, niece and nephew, her parents, her estranged husband who's now left to raise two boys who has been recently rebuilding a relationship with them in the last few months. I don't understand the why's of our Lord taking Bekah home, but I know it's for his Glory and I'm trying so very hard to simply praise him for it, vs continuing to ask why.

Tomorrow as our family celebrates Chad's return home, Rebekah's boys will be preparing for her funeal and saying goodbye to their Momma. Please be in prayer for her boys. Her dad and brother are there with them, and then on Friday her body will be sent to NC where her parents live, where she grew up and next week they'll have a funeral there for their family, friends, and bury her there. My heart is heavy and aching. I miss my friend so much. My nights will never feel complete without chatting with her, saying goodnight, and I love you to her. I'm so thankful that the last words I typed to her was "I love you". She knew how I felt about her and the last words she typed to me were "I love you" and I know how much she cared about me. I was blessed to have had her friendship for the last 11 1/2 years. I'm blessed to know that her faith was with Jesus and that she's in Heaven.

Blessed Assurance

Blessèd assurance, Jesus is mine!

O what a foretaste of glory divine!

Heir of salvation, purchase of God,

Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.


This is my story, this is my song,

Praising my Savior, all the day long;

This is my story, this is my song,

Praising my Savior, all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight,

Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;

Angels descending bring from above

Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.


Perfect submission, all is at rest

I in my Savior am happy and blest,

Watching and waiting, looking above,

Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.



That corgi :) said...

I am so happy Chad is coming home today and that he is doing well and that the Lord provided for him that he wasn't more hurt than he was. God is sooooo faithful and soooo good in all things, even the things we can't grasp or understand or make us terribly sad. I will keep Rebekah's children in my prayers. What a sad thing for the whole family.

hugs to you Christy, I am glad you had such a good friendship with Rebekah and that you got to "talk" with her the night before she went home. A special gift indeed given to you by God to have had the chance to say once more you loved her and she the same to you


Barbara said...

Oh how I love that old hymn! I can remember the congregation singing it loudly and boldly in some of my youngest memories. (((Christy))) Praising Him that is carrying you through the storm!

Grandma~rella said...

Yes Christy~Praise GOD! I've been praying all week for your sweet Chad, for you and the children and for sweet Rebeckah's boys and family. Chad is truly a fortunate man to have you for his wife. The children are lucky to have you for their Mommy. Rebeckah was and will continue to be fortunate, to have you in her life for those 11 1/2 years. You will be able to share her legacy with her sweet boys...maybe write a journal for them, to present to them when they're a little older.

I love you Christy~You're truly an amazing young lady (((HUGS)))