Monday, November 26, 2007
Posted by Christy at 6:44 PM
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Isn't it easy to get so caught up in life that we forget to just sit up and enjoy the moment? I am guilty of this just as anyone...but when I do remember to just stop, shut up, and be quiet...those moments are so precious. I so often get so busy that I almost miss that these days are fleeting and in a blink of an eye my babies are not going to be babies anymore. Reality is Jacob truly isn't. He's closing in on 7 yrs old and I am not sure how that happened. I'm thankful it has, trust me...having a child captured at an age forever well it sucks. I know ugly word, but it does. It does seem like just yesterday Jacob was born and now here we are over 6 yrs later and he's turned into such a wonderful little boy. Then Jackson. When we moved here to Germany he wasn't even 2 yet...he was CLOSE, but he wasn't yet! Now some how he's turned into this 4 yr old that cracks me up often, makes me feel like I'm going to lose all my hair because of, and has such a tender heart (so got that from me!). Today during church he climbed into my lap and just cuddled with me. He placed his head under my chin and just rested. He knows he has a safe place to go to.
Sitting here this evening thinking about Jack climbing in my lap during church made me think, that's how we should be with Jesus. We should always feel like we can simply crawl into his lap and rest there. So often we get into the busyness (yes..being BUSY) in Christ, that we forget to REST in him. How many of us are attending church, bible study, helping in other area's of church...being it Praise Team/Choir, Children's ministry, etc....being busy in the name of Christ is EASY. My goodness it's so easy! But to be resting in Christ...well that for me is a bigger struggle. I have to truly remind myself to rest in him. That I can just be silent, sit still, close my eyes, focus on him. So often I should be reading his word and just being still, letting his words do the work, letting him do what he will do and me just accepting it, live it, and rest in him. How often do we truly rest in the Lord?
What joy we can have when we just stop doing all the time. I'm not saying not to do things within the church, for Christ, etc...trust me just the opposite (we need MORE people to be stepping up). But, I know for me how important it is to simply be with the Lord. I don't do it very often. Trust me that's quite humbling to type out, but it's the truth. I must make it a priority to just sit and be still. I need to shut up more, and listen harder.
I have a feeling I'm not alone there.
"Lord, please forgive me for getting so busy "doing" your work, that I forget to be your work. Lord you are my soft place to fall, my safe place to rest. Lord I need to remember that I need to rest in you so that I can be rejuivinated to do your work that you call me to do. There is no greater joy that to be in your presence Lord. I thank you for not only allowing me to share you with others, but that I can simply keep you to myself at times as well. Lord you are oh so Holy and I praise you. In your precious name. Amen"
Posted by Christy at 7:05 PM
Thursday, November 15, 2007
If you could look into my heart you'd see a woman who's been wounded many times, but with the Grace of God, healed. If you could see in my heart, you'd see many things that have went untold, except to God. If you could see into my heart you'd see tears dropped and wiped away with the gentleness of Christ's hand.
If you could see into my heart you'd see the love of a wife who wants to be a truly Godly wife. To respect her husband and never show anything less to him. You'd see a wife who's said hurtful and ugly things to this man, but see a heart who's been forgiven by that man.
If you could see in my heart you'd see a mother who wants nothing more than to raise Godly children, bring them up in love, kindness, gentleness, and discipline. You'd see a mom who feels so often that she's failin in all those aspects...yet amazingly has loving, kind, gentle, pretty well deisciplined children and that heart knows it's nothing short of the Grace of God.
Today as I listen to my boys giggle watching Spirit, knowing how much spirit they have in themselves makes me smile. I hear Emma cooing to her little "friends" on her playmat, as she moves herself all around, wiggled out of her tiny little jeans (yes she did!!), and is making her way off her mat and onto the hardwood floor!
Right now there's such joy in my heart I can't even tell you.
You see my hearts been broken, torn, and ripped apart...but it then gets healed by God. He's at times gentle and at times in my face. He knows just what I need to "Get it" each day and at times different times of the day. He's my father and when I need to be disciplined he does it...righteously, effectively, but full of love none the less. When I'm broken and falling on my face in grief...he gently lifts me up and rocks me in his strong , capable, and soft arms. He wispers reassurance and promises to me and lets me know that I indeed will see the light if I just look to him.
How a single person can get through this life without him is simply beyond my comprehension. I've lived the worst nightmare of every parent. I've watched my child die. I've buried her in the ground, and I've survived to tell about it. Could God have saved her and allowed her to live...absolutely...but he didn't. Do I understand his reasoning, no..do I accept it and realize it's all for his Glory and that ultimately she's just where she's meant to be. Do I realize that she lived on this earth the perfect amount of time to fullfil her life? Yes, yes, YES. Does it humble me to my knee's to know that Jordyn was able to accomplish all of her life's accomplishments in just 2 yrs 1 month and 8 days. Absolutely....especially when I look at myself and feel that I'm so far from still accomplishing all that God has set out for me to do so far in my 30 yrs. Why some can accomplish things in 5 days or 2 yrs vs 80 or 90 yrs I don't know. What I do know is this...God knows and that's all I need to worry about. God see's each and everyone of our hearts...those who believe and are doing their best to follow him and those who aren't.
To that I'm grateful.
Today I'm thankful for My God. For his sacrifice for me on the cross 2000 years ago.
Posted by Christy at 9:48 AM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Posted by Christy at 5:32 PM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Saturday, November 03, 2007
******Just a note....pictures at the bottom*****************
Halloween is over and we're now looking forward to Thanksgiving my 2nd favorite holiday right after Christmas. I love having a day that's set aside to remember just how blessed we are and how much we have to be thankful for. Our family truly has so much to be thankful for, and far too often I forget that.
I am so blessed to have a husband who loves me as unconditionally as a person can love another person. He puts up with a very moody woman, who at times can go from one extreme to the next in 5 seconds flat. He's given me 4 beautiful, precious children. He's a man who's after God's own heart and that is the biggest blessing of all. Our children see that and that will be one of the biggest influences in their own Christian walk.
This year we'll be celebrating the Holiday with our friends. The husband's currently deployed, but will be home for Thanksgiving, or should be anyways and he's requested that we be there! It's awesome! She's over here a lot and I just love her. She's definately the best friend I have here and I just love spending time with her. I love their kids, and Chad and her husband get along great...when they're oh both in the same country! LOL For Christmas he'll be back to his deployment so she and the kids will be coming here to our home. I'm so thankful to have friends that we can open our home to when the spouse is gone or even home to just have those kinds of friends. We ARE blessed.
I'm so thankful that I am able to homeschool my children. To know that I don't have to send them off to brick and mortar buildings 5 days a week, to have another person, a virtual stranger teach my children things that I'm more than capable of teaching them. To know that I was the first person to hear them read their first words, first sentence, first paragraph and so on. I know it's not for every family, but it is for ours and because of that I praise God we're Americans and have this privilege (and yes it's most definately a privilege).
Most of all I'm thankful for Christ. That he died for my sins. That he humbled himself to be a child of a virgin girl who was not much more than a child herself when she became his mother. That he saw it fit to love ME even though I'm full of sin and ugliness at times. He willingly died on the cross for ME. How humbling when we get down to the nitty gritty and really think of just what he did for us. How many of us would even be willing to CONSIDER being crusifide but less actually doing it? I can say that I wouldn't. Just the thought of it is too much for me. How blessed we are to have a Savior such as he.
I don't see myself coming here everyday, but for the month of November and December everytime I do post, I will be listing at least 3 things I'm thankful for!
Jacob, Emma, and Jackson
The boys were both Peter from Narnia
Emma was a Princess
This is Love
My Princess (tired in Daddy's arms)
Posted by Christy at 5:30 PM