Friday, May 08, 2009

Nine Years In Heaven

"I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe" (Ephesians 1:18,19 NIV).

This was the verse from an online daily devotion I read. Oh what a hearts cry! It's my hearts cry. Oh GOD is so awesome. Nine years ago today, he welcomed my sweet Jordyn Ashleigh back into his arms. How blessed am I know to know that she knows his incomparable power. That she has inherited his riches and desires for her soul!

I miss my little girl. I long to feel her in my arms. To smell her sweet smell. She made me a Momma. She was the first to call me Mommy. I can still remember the first day she said "I love you, Momma". We were standing in our kitchen and I was sitting on the floor with her playing and I told her "I love you, Jordyn" and she looked right at me and said "I love youl, Momma". There has never been any sweeter words said.

To share the day she died, is still just too personal to put here. I am not sure I'll ever be able to blog about it. It was the most precious moment of my life, I can say that. I was there when she came into my life and I was there when she left it. There is nothing more precious in this life, I promise you. Nothing more painful or precious. I praise our LORD that he allowed me to mother Jordyn while she graced this earth and I praise him in knowing that one day, I'll be with her again, in Heaven.

I leave you with my favorite verse, the verse I cling to.

Isaiah 40:11

He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.


Emily said...

What a beautiful Word from the Lord today!! My heart aches with you. I am praying for His joy to be your strength today. And I'm praising Him for Jordyn, too.

a corgi said...

(((Christy))) I know I just keep giving you hugs, but I have no words....except that the Lord is good, He is good all the time. Your faith is such a living testimony to his goodness and his love! You are blessed and you will be blessed and one day FOREVER, for ALL ETERNITY, you and Jordyn and the rest of your family will be TOGETHER. What a glorious time that will be!


Kim said...

Happy Mother's Day, that was a beautiful post.

Amanda said...

I am so very sorry Christy. I have always thought the saying "Time heals All Wounds" was a bunch of whooey, but I just desperately wish it were true...just so you could think of her and not ache to your core.

You are in my prayers.

God bless-

Terri said...

Wish I could give you a big hug...

Thinking of you..keeping you in my prayers...


bp said...

Christy, This is such a sweet post. I am praying for you on Mother's Day weekend.

Amy said...

I am thankful that you are using your loss as something that could benefit someone else. Your sharing is someone else's blessing. Not to many will open their hearts like this, and I really admire you for doing it.
Losing a child has got to be the hardest thing in the world.
Would you mind sharing sometime how it has effected your marriage?
Blessings and I hope you are sleeping